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Tuesday 29 April 2008
*.* Goodbye Wisdom Teeth... *.*
*.* Goodbye Wisdom Teeth... *.*
I am super duper hungry. Since 12mn till now I only had 3 packets of milo and 2 bowls of soup.
I had my 3 of my wisdom teeth removed today. Surgery went well. Apparently I only had one side with stitches the rest should heal quite fast. I was in wonderland a few seconds later when anesthetic was injected into my body. By the time I woke up, Tata still in one good piece.
Nicky came and pick me up. Yes so sweet of him. Thanks pal. We went to Tomsum house and I just needed to rest. I feel like I've floated from one place to another. I'm on medical leave till Monday. Wow! I feel like going on a good holiday suddenly, but without food because I can't eat. Never mind, in my dreams maybe.
Every time I swallow my saliva, I taste blood. -Yucks- My body still feels numb. And yes it's painful..
I had my 3 of my wisdom teeth removed today. Surgery went well. Apparently I only had one side with stitches the rest should heal quite fast. I was in wonderland a few seconds later when anesthetic was injected into my body. By the time I woke up, Tata still in one good piece.
Nicky came and pick me up. Yes so sweet of him. Thanks pal. We went to Tomsum house and I just needed to rest. I feel like I've floated from one place to another. I'm on medical leave till Monday. Wow! I feel like going on a good holiday suddenly, but without food because I can't eat. Never mind, in my dreams maybe.
Every time I swallow my saliva, I taste blood. -Yucks- My body still feels numb. And yes it's painful..
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Sunday 27 April 2008
*.* Fruitful Saturday *.*
*.* Fruitful Saturday *.*
Here I was, standing in the midst of the congregation and a familiar song came. It was the song that I led for worship during one of the combined cell. A new song. This time round I get to hear it with a full band. -Sweet-
"I will never let go of Your love
Your Mighty love
I will never forget of the praise
You're worthy of
You never fail me
And You never walk away
I will never let go of Your love"
Amazing song. My tears flowed uncontrollably when we sang this. Powerful.
"Christ in me is all I wanna be
Solely You is everything I need
Cleanse me today
Mold me like the potter's clay
Free to be
Christ in me"
Another simple yet meaningful song.
Somehow one simple song with no repeated verse or repeated chorus can be so powerful.
Just need to sing it again and again until you are convinced with what you believe.
Life full of Abundance. Do you have it?
Another super ungodly hour to blog. I went tanning in the morning at Yio Chu Kang swimming complex with Wayne. Good weather today but maybe a little too hot. I'm still perspiring right now even after my bath.
I've never played tennis in my entire life until Ben suggested to play tennis at his house just now. It is quite a tiring game. I could feel my left arm soring now and it's not functioning properly and it's... Alright, I admit I haven't exercise for a long long long...... time.
I was enjoying myself with the swinging, whacking, running and even hitting Daryl (I didn't really hit him too). It was quite an experience for me but maybe not for Daryl. The ball which I hit, smacked right at the back of his head, his face and his buttock. Well, the ball has no eyes anyway so can't blame me and I really wasn't aiming at him. But it was good. And he even hit his own face. -Laughs-
Guys out there, please do not try sit on the net, or bounce the tennis ball too hard, or try bouncing it with your racket like as though you are playing basketball and cannot catch it on time because you might injure yourself and your.. You can ask Ben how it feels though.
After a long time, I decided to take a rest and this was what I did..
Tiny Daryl
And here I was, entertaining myself
Trying to bite off the racket real hard
And after a while, the guys decided to do some stunts.. (Please do not try this at home)
Flying Ben (Maybe for Adidas?)
I think my photography skill is pretty good. I could actually capture their 'flying' stunt with just one attempt. =)
I'm really tired now.
"I will never let go of Your love
Your Mighty love
I will never forget of the praise
You're worthy of
You never fail me
And You never walk away
I will never let go of Your love"
Amazing song. My tears flowed uncontrollably when we sang this. Powerful.
"Christ in me is all I wanna be
Solely You is everything I need
Cleanse me today
Mold me like the potter's clay
Free to be
Christ in me"
Another simple yet meaningful song.
Somehow one simple song with no repeated verse or repeated chorus can be so powerful.
Just need to sing it again and again until you are convinced with what you believe.
Life full of Abundance. Do you have it?
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Another super ungodly hour to blog. I went tanning in the morning at Yio Chu Kang swimming complex with Wayne. Good weather today but maybe a little too hot. I'm still perspiring right now even after my bath.
I've never played tennis in my entire life until Ben suggested to play tennis at his house just now. It is quite a tiring game. I could feel my left arm soring now and it's not functioning properly and it's... Alright, I admit I haven't exercise for a long long long...... time.
I was enjoying myself with the swinging, whacking, running and even hitting Daryl (I didn't really hit him too). It was quite an experience for me but maybe not for Daryl. The ball which I hit, smacked right at the back of his head, his face and his buttock. Well, the ball has no eyes anyway so can't blame me and I really wasn't aiming at him. But it was good. And he even hit his own face. -Laughs-
Guys out there, please do not try sit on the net, or bounce the tennis ball too hard, or try bouncing it with your racket like as though you are playing basketball and cannot catch it on time because you might injure yourself and your.. You can ask Ben how it feels though.
After a long time, I decided to take a rest and this was what I did..
Tiny Ben
Tiny Daryl
And here I was, entertaining myself
Trying to bite off the racket real hard
And after a while, the guys decided to do some stunts.. (Please do not try this at home)
Flying Daryl (He's just thinking of being the model for Nike for some new advert)
Flying Ben (Maybe for Adidas?)
And we decided to call it a day..
I think my photography skill is pretty good. I could actually capture their 'flying' stunt with just one attempt. =)I'm really tired now.
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Friday 25 April 2008
*.* Counting down... *.*
*.* Counting down... *.*
-Yawns- Quite an ungodly hour to blog. I can't sleep maybe I'm too happy. Anyways, been out these whole week with movies and shopping.
I thought I just needed to enjoy myself this whole week and stuff myself with some nice food before I go through some painful, teeth-less days without proper food and probably even drink.. So I was out with Ben for movie, ice cream, donuts (And I still believe Donut Factory has the BEST donuts).. My colleagues with nice dinner, shopping, movie..
Belgian Chocolate Ice Cream was fantastic!
I'm glad I've got myself a new set of bikini and someone (a colleague) bought me some new clothes. It's still good to be a girl after all. Time for a good tan. I'm missing Rachel and Emmie.. (By the time you girls are back, the weather will be wet and no sun to tan.. Sigh..)
Counting down to my pain.. 4 days.. I hope it will be over soon..
I thought I just needed to enjoy myself this whole week and stuff myself with some nice food before I go through some painful, teeth-less days without proper food and probably even drink.. So I was out with Ben for movie, ice cream, donuts (And I still believe Donut Factory has the BEST donuts).. My colleagues with nice dinner, shopping, movie..
Chocolate with lemon cream (heart-shaped) still taste heavenly!
Belgian Chocolate Ice Cream was fantastic!
I'm glad I've got myself a new set of bikini and someone (a colleague) bought me some new clothes. It's still good to be a girl after all. Time for a good tan. I'm missing Rachel and Emmie.. (By the time you girls are back, the weather will be wet and no sun to tan.. Sigh..)
Counting down to my pain.. 4 days.. I hope it will be over soon..
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Sunday 20 April 2008
*.* Changing my perspective and I'll change my life.. *.*
*.* Changing my perspective and I'll change my life.. *.*
Maybe it's time to settle down. I mean in church. Time to spend time to go cell and of course getting back to God. I guessed I've idled too long till I feel I've drifted so far apart.
Quite a hard sermon to swallow but I guessed I'm back to the basics.
Changing my perspective and I'll change my life..
I was watching this cartoon by Max Lucado about Hermie and Wormie (they are just worms), other insects and God (Eh, I still think God don't talk to insects). They are really adorable. There was a part about obeying the rules that God made and suddenly God spoke (as usual in a deep low voice), He said rules are meant to protect us and they are there because He loves us. I could feel tears were welling up the corner of my eyes. I guess I know where I've gone wrong.
Anyway, another week or so to my GA wisdom teeth surgery. It's quite a wrong timing to watch a wrong show called Awake. Scary. I just want to get it over and done with fast. God take the fear out of me (just like how the worms spoke in the cartoon).
Quite a hard sermon to swallow but I guessed I'm back to the basics.
Changing my perspective and I'll change my life..
- God is the Lord of my life. (Have I really acknowledged Him and allow Him to do that?)
- God knows what is best for me. (I know but...)
- God desires what is best for me. (I also know but...)
- God has the power to do what is best for me. (Okay.. What am I supposed to do next?)
I was watching this cartoon by Max Lucado about Hermie and Wormie (they are just worms), other insects and God (Eh, I still think God don't talk to insects). They are really adorable. There was a part about obeying the rules that God made and suddenly God spoke (as usual in a deep low voice), He said rules are meant to protect us and they are there because He loves us. I could feel tears were welling up the corner of my eyes. I guess I know where I've gone wrong.
Anyway, another week or so to my GA wisdom teeth surgery. It's quite a wrong timing to watch a wrong show called Awake. Scary. I just want to get it over and done with fast. God take the fear out of me (just like how the worms spoke in the cartoon).
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Wednesday 16 April 2008
*.* If this has a title then it has to be called.. Lost in my own world.. *.*
*.* If this has a title then it has to be called.. Lost in my own world.. *.*
It has never occur to me that it's no big deal not going to church for one week. If nothing changed at all, no matter how tired I am, I would still try my best to wake up though late for service. But now.. I guess something really wrong with me this time. I think in the midst of seeking, I've lost my way. Somewhere somehow out there, I may not know what I'm doing anymore.
I didn't forget Him but I don't know where I am now. I didn't lose Him just that I don't know where I put Him now. I didn't walk away maybe I've ran ahead or super far back or I'm out of track or I'm drowning.
I've come to a point of realization: things that we want or hope for, we won't be able to get hold of it no matter how hard we try while sometimes, it's the entire opposite. When it comes or happens, you just can't stop it or push it away because you don't want it to happen and you don't wish that it will happen.
I'm losing faith, maybe in myself. How fun can life be right?
I won't forsake Him because I know He loves me the most.. And He still do..
I didn't forget Him but I don't know where I am now. I didn't lose Him just that I don't know where I put Him now. I didn't walk away maybe I've ran ahead or super far back or I'm out of track or I'm drowning.
I've come to a point of realization: things that we want or hope for, we won't be able to get hold of it no matter how hard we try while sometimes, it's the entire opposite. When it comes or happens, you just can't stop it or push it away because you don't want it to happen and you don't wish that it will happen.
I'm losing faith, maybe in myself. How fun can life be right?
I won't forsake Him because I know He loves me the most.. And He still do..
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Sunday 13 April 2008
*.* Blabber *.*
*.* Blabber *.*
I don't the big deal of you having to go back to office the whole of Saturday just to finish your work considering that you took 2 half day off because you were sick and later asked some other people to help you finish your work.
I only had 4 hours of sleep every night since Tuesday, left the company event halfway and worked till 11.30pm on Friday while every one's probably having fun outside and I had to slog my Friday night away. I was sick, recovered a little then fell sick again because I didn't rest enough and I didn't even dare to take MC. You are not the only one who is sick.
So, what's the problem with you having to call me at 4 plus on a Saturday telling me off? I tried my very best to do this project what more do you want? Anyway, it's really your deadline, at most I'm out of the job but least completing my full year contract.
Anyway, I still went out to chill on Friday night with a couple of colleagues to Dempsey Road and had Ben & Jerry's Ice cream. Good place with great ambience. It's a little troublesome to go in without a car and it's very dim there. I actually had a hard time trying to locate the place. Anyway, thanks to my colleague with his irritating GPS having to tell me to slow down when I was only driving at 65km/hr. They were really nice to accompany me after the company event and then chilled out together.
Another place that my colleague found was at Seletar East Camp - Singapore Flying Club for dinner. Very very 'ulu' place. I can't remember how to go in and it's really dark. High beam is essential. I was quite scared to look into my rear mirror while driving back because I can't see a single thing and I was alone in the car. Boo! Please don't try to go there alone in the dark because it's super dark. Just got reminded how Kenneth and I saw something white jumped while we were on the church van some time back and found out that it was nothing (Well, James claimed that there was nothing and we didn't see anything after that too). Eerie. Food was quite okay but a little expensive. Very little light at least I could see what I was eating.
Hmmm, about the previous post, every thing's cleared. I don't intend to delete the post unless my conviction tells me so. I seriously had a very tough week and that was the built-up emotions that I had and I just wrote whatever was on my mind then. I can only say that things are cleared up between us and I hope no one will ask or talk about it anymore because it's between the two of us. And I'll keep the post there for me to remind myself.
-I'm really glad that you hear me out and talked things out. You kinda made things easier without even flaring up and I thank you for that. I didn't want it to see people pointing fingers at you but it was all about how I really felt at that time. Thanks for clearing the misunderstanding..-
Peace.
I only had 4 hours of sleep every night since Tuesday, left the company event halfway and worked till 11.30pm on Friday while every one's probably having fun outside and I had to slog my Friday night away. I was sick, recovered a little then fell sick again because I didn't rest enough and I didn't even dare to take MC. You are not the only one who is sick.
So, what's the problem with you having to call me at 4 plus on a Saturday telling me off? I tried my very best to do this project what more do you want? Anyway, it's really your deadline, at most I'm out of the job but least completing my full year contract.
Anyway, I still went out to chill on Friday night with a couple of colleagues to Dempsey Road and had Ben & Jerry's Ice cream. Good place with great ambience. It's a little troublesome to go in without a car and it's very dim there. I actually had a hard time trying to locate the place. Anyway, thanks to my colleague with his irritating GPS having to tell me to slow down when I was only driving at 65km/hr. They were really nice to accompany me after the company event and then chilled out together.
Another place that my colleague found was at Seletar East Camp - Singapore Flying Club for dinner. Very very 'ulu' place. I can't remember how to go in and it's really dark. High beam is essential. I was quite scared to look into my rear mirror while driving back because I can't see a single thing and I was alone in the car. Boo! Please don't try to go there alone in the dark because it's super dark. Just got reminded how Kenneth and I saw something white jumped while we were on the church van some time back and found out that it was nothing (Well, James claimed that there was nothing and we didn't see anything after that too). Eerie. Food was quite okay but a little expensive. Very little light at least I could see what I was eating.
Hmmm, about the previous post, every thing's cleared. I don't intend to delete the post unless my conviction tells me so. I seriously had a very tough week and that was the built-up emotions that I had and I just wrote whatever was on my mind then. I can only say that things are cleared up between us and I hope no one will ask or talk about it anymore because it's between the two of us. And I'll keep the post there for me to remind myself.
-I'm really glad that you hear me out and talked things out. You kinda made things easier without even flaring up and I thank you for that. I didn't want it to see people pointing fingers at you but it was all about how I really felt at that time. Thanks for clearing the misunderstanding..-
Peace.
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Friday 11 April 2008
*.* Another output to vent fraustrations *.*
*.* Another output to vent fraustrations *.*
Time to vent some more fraustrations. I actually slept like 2am for the past few nights and tried very hard to wake up in the middle of the night just to finish up my work because today is the deadline (supposed to be). My colleagues outsourced to the IA student and temp to do their last minute job.
What on earth am I doing then? My company got the Intergated Resort floorplan and we need to do a combined antenna system for Singtel, M1 and Starhub mobile coverage. We are tendering our design to bid for the project. I can't show anyone the floorplan because it's supposed to be confidential. Well, if my company get this project then it will commence 2 years later and I get to leave my blueprint there.
Anyway, quite fed up. I tried so hard to complete it with little rest and my cough and flu is back again. I was able to recover and just the 2 night work can be so physically draining. I don't think I'll be able to recover that soon unless I get ample rest.
I can safely say I'm the fastest to complete whatever I'm doing. Maybe will take a little of my own sweet time because I'm not going to help them complete theirs. It's tiring and I'm having a headache now. I just want to sleep and rest. I want to recover so I can see Joash soon.
I think I'll take a day leave next week and go.. Haha.. You know what I'm thinking right? OKAY, I'll probably rest first then go..
Back to the same thing again. Sigh.
What on earth am I doing then? My company got the Intergated Resort floorplan and we need to do a combined antenna system for Singtel, M1 and Starhub mobile coverage. We are tendering our design to bid for the project. I can't show anyone the floorplan because it's supposed to be confidential. Well, if my company get this project then it will commence 2 years later and I get to leave my blueprint there.
Anyway, quite fed up. I tried so hard to complete it with little rest and my cough and flu is back again. I was able to recover and just the 2 night work can be so physically draining. I don't think I'll be able to recover that soon unless I get ample rest.
I can safely say I'm the fastest to complete whatever I'm doing. Maybe will take a little of my own sweet time because I'm not going to help them complete theirs. It's tiring and I'm having a headache now. I just want to sleep and rest. I want to recover so I can see Joash soon.
I think I'll take a day leave next week and go.. Haha.. You know what I'm thinking right? OKAY, I'll probably rest first then go..
Back to the same thing again. Sigh.
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Thursday 10 April 2008
*.* Whatever that comes to my mind right now.. *.*
*.* Whatever that comes to my mind right now.. *.*
This is not a very godly timing to blog at this hour but I need to de-stress. My deadline is due tomorrow and I'm not halfway there yet. This is too mentally and physically draining. I can feel myself soaking into the quick sand and can't get up. Even dreamt about work. Bad.
I can feel my tears welling up of stress and saddness. Thanks to you and you (you know who) who knocked some sense into me. Well, it really made me think and cry a lot.
Thanks to you (I really hope you know it's you) for breaking that trust I always have for you. Why didn't you give me the simplest due respect that belongs to me? Why did I have to bother so much knowing that you don't?
I feel that everything that I've done FOR YOU had been taken for granted. I've done so much yet I honestly feel you aren't appreciative at all. I don't know how much you care, I don't know how much you really know what's happening here and I'm very sure you have no idea I'm struggling here trying to balance things out between us.
I'm not going to force anything out from you, I'm not going to push my way through, I'm not trying to be part of your life.
I know right from the start I'm at a disadvantage but I didn't know it has to be this way.
It's plain stupid to do all this willingly and know that I'm taken for granted.
I look like a fool now.
My only consolation: It's better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all.
I've done my best..
Tell me my time, effort, persistance and petrol have all gone to waste...
Tell me it's not worth to invest more on him...
-Love is patient, love is kind... It makes me look stupid too..-
Heaven Knows..
..And even now she's gone I'm still holding on
So tell me, where do I start 'Cause it's breakin' my heart don't wanna let her go
Maybe my love will come back someday
Only Heaven knows
And maybe our hearts will find a way
But only Heaven knows and all I can do is hope and pray
'Cause Heaven knows
My friends keep telling me that if you really love her
You've gotta set her free and if she returns in time I'll know she's mine
But tell me, where do I start 'Cause it's breakin' my heart don't wanna let her go
Maybe my love will come back someday
Only Heaven knows
And maybe our hearts will find a way
But only Heaven knows and all I can do is hope and pray 'Cause Heaven knows
Why I live in despair 'Cause wide awake or dreamin' I know she's never there
And all the time I act so brave,I'm shakin' inside
Why does it hurt me so?..
I can feel my tears welling up of stress and saddness. Thanks to you and you (you know who) who knocked some sense into me. Well, it really made me think and cry a lot.
Thanks to you (I really hope you know it's you) for breaking that trust I always have for you. Why didn't you give me the simplest due respect that belongs to me? Why did I have to bother so much knowing that you don't?
I feel that everything that I've done FOR YOU had been taken for granted. I've done so much yet I honestly feel you aren't appreciative at all. I don't know how much you care, I don't know how much you really know what's happening here and I'm very sure you have no idea I'm struggling here trying to balance things out between us.
I'm not going to force anything out from you, I'm not going to push my way through, I'm not trying to be part of your life.
I know right from the start I'm at a disadvantage but I didn't know it has to be this way.
It's plain stupid to do all this willingly and know that I'm taken for granted.
I look like a fool now.
My only consolation: It's better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all.
I've done my best..
Tell me my time, effort, persistance and petrol have all gone to waste...
Tell me it's not worth to invest more on him...
-Love is patient, love is kind... It makes me look stupid too..-
Heaven Knows..
..And even now she's gone I'm still holding on
So tell me, where do I start 'Cause it's breakin' my heart don't wanna let her go
Maybe my love will come back someday
Only Heaven knows
And maybe our hearts will find a way
But only Heaven knows and all I can do is hope and pray
'Cause Heaven knows
My friends keep telling me that if you really love her
You've gotta set her free and if she returns in time I'll know she's mine
But tell me, where do I start 'Cause it's breakin' my heart don't wanna let her go
Maybe my love will come back someday
Only Heaven knows
And maybe our hearts will find a way
But only Heaven knows and all I can do is hope and pray 'Cause Heaven knows
Why I live in despair 'Cause wide awake or dreamin' I know she's never there
And all the time I act so brave,I'm shakin' inside
Why does it hurt me so?..
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Monday 7 April 2008
*.* Updates.. *.*
*.* Updates.. *.*
Went up to the cruise (AGAIN) last week and I still can't figure out why the chief engineer could trust me with S$1450 cash and they are all in $50-note. The last time I held so many pieces of $50-notes was when I was told to pay my dental deposit fees.
I'm really happy that I visited a church. Walked out from the Sanctuary feeling re-charged, challenge and really made me think. Somehow I've got a little motivation and encouragement too.
The pastor preached about standing on our ground and putting on the Armour of God. Honestly, I've heard many time about the Armour of God but this time round I felt the message was so for me. I was reminded that no matter what kind of circumstances God is there for me. Because He first loved me, therefore I choose to love. I was reminded of my first love with Jesus. I know no matter what happens, I must stand firm with God and never forsake Him.
I hope I'll recover soon with no more irritating coughs so I can see Joash..
It's going to be a super busy week..
I'm really happy that I visited a church. Walked out from the Sanctuary feeling re-charged, challenge and really made me think. Somehow I've got a little motivation and encouragement too.
The pastor preached about standing on our ground and putting on the Armour of God. Honestly, I've heard many time about the Armour of God but this time round I felt the message was so for me. I was reminded that no matter what kind of circumstances God is there for me. Because He first loved me, therefore I choose to love. I was reminded of my first love with Jesus. I know no matter what happens, I must stand firm with God and never forsake Him.
I hope I'll recover soon with no more irritating coughs so I can see Joash..
It's going to be a super busy week..
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Wednesday 2 April 2008
*.* Virus Attack.. *.*
*.* Virus Attack.. *.*
I can't be more sick than this. Sore throat, cough, flu, fever, whole body aching and somehow I feel quite jelly, giddy. Oh my, what have I gotten myself into? No idea what kind of virus is that. Maybe the office air is simply too bad that virus is in the air (not love is in the air ya?) Somehow I've got so used to some people nagging at me to drink more water and I haven't been drinking up too.
So sad that I had to stay away from Joash. Can't even carry him or get close to him. Didn't want to spread my unfriendly germs to the little one.
So sad that I had to stay away from Joash. Can't even carry him or get close to him. Didn't want to spread my unfriendly germs to the little one.
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Tuesday 1 April 2008
*.* If only I know where and how to start.. *.*
*.* If only I know where and how to start.. *.*
Just one sentence will do. Nothing much had been said for so long yet the hug was so familiar. The familiar tears brought me back to how we got to know each other again. Maybe I missed it for a long time. I don't know what to say. Maybe it's too much to say which I have no idea where and how to start. Thank you for being IN my life. You are so much part of my life. Perhaps I've walked out of it without knowing.
All I could say now is I'm sorry..
All I could say now is I'm sorry..
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