+ I will keep my eyes upon Jesus +

Sunday 31 December 2006
*.* Thank God for 2006 *.*

There are so much to thank God for this year and so many people who made my life interesting this year too.

There are so many first-times in my life this year.

4th March - Officer Cadet Orientation
21st March - 1st BOTC Session
23rd March - 1st Primers Camp Organised by James, Simon

4th April - 1st Driving Lesson
8th-9th April - BB Residential Camp
21st April - New cell 1st meeting at my place
25th April - Last BOTC Session, Had my braces put on

30th May - First worship leading in a group bigger than cell (Global Day of Prayer)

3rd June - 1st Heart Savers Course (I can save a life!!)

3rd July - BB Enrolment Service. (Official BB Officer)

25th Aug - 28th Aug - Conquered Mount Ophir (Finally!)

4th Sept - 1st Day of Attachment (First taste of working life), 1st Attempt Driving Test (Failed)

15th Oct - 1st Time I play keyboard in Main Service

24th Nov - End of Attachment (Finally)
27th Nov - 1st Day of FYP
30th Nov - 2nd Attempt Driving Test (Passed)

1st Dec - 1st Time Driving on the Road
9th Dec - 1st Worship Leading in Youth Camp
13th Dec - 1st Caroling Practice for Christmas
24th Dec - My 1st time going from houses to houses to sing carols

This year marked my last teen years and I'm turning 20 soon. I remember that on my birthday I made a resolution for 2006,

1. Top of the list is to complete Mount Ophir.

2. Be a responsible BB officer.

3. Believing that God can heal me inside out, outside in.

4. Driving license!!

5. Do something that I've never done in the past 19 years. Maybe I want to challenge my fears...

6. Something that I've never dare try for the past 19 years.

7. I just want to treasure all that I have...

I thank God that almost everything was accomplished. I'm really thankful because this one year is a fruitful one indeed.

Thank God for Aunty Cheng Suan, she helped me through my toughest time with her love, prayers for me and because of her motherly figure, she made me realised I'm not a child without love. God loves me and I know she loves me lots too... She never fail to pray for me when I needed them the most.

Thank God for Tommy Kor, Sharon Jie and Baby Joash for bringing much joy in my life this year and all the encouragements that they have supported me. I believe this year has been so much joy for you too because of Joash's birth. I really see the sacrifice of a mother when comes to taking care of a helpless baby. Well done Sharon Jie!! -pat on your back-

I thank God for my 3 bestest friends, Rachel, Daphne and Daryl.

Thank you for your thoughtfulness, your encouragement, your support as a friend and a sister/brother. You always see things in a way that I can never see. Though we have disagreements at times, though we rubbed each other shoulders so much that sometimes it really irritates one another, I thank God for sustaining us. It will be our 8th year and still counting..

Thank God for all who are reading this.

Thank God for 2006.. =)

posted by Michelle at 15:42:00 | 0 comments

Friday 29 December 2006
*.* Earthquakes.. Floods.. Droughts.. What's next? *.*

Internet access had been down for 2 full days. It was really tough without having Internet access and all I could do in the lab was to read Channel News Asia, a book and sleep.

Latest update so far,

Singapore, Malaysia - Flood
Taiwan - Big Earthquake
South Australia - Drought

Is this world going to end soon? The earth is going to be destroyed soon I guess. Just imagine if one day Singapore is hit by a small Tsunami, we probably can't even see Bukit Timah Hill anymore. I know guys would like Pulau Tekong to be flooded and nowhere to be seen, my friends wouldn't want Sentosa to be invaded with sharks. I had nightmares too. I dreamt that blocks and blocks of building collapsing right in front of me and I was helpless.

I finished 'Every Young Man's Battle' within a day and I've got a new revelation towards guys. I didn't know that guys are so stimulated with what they see and it doesn't have to take immediate effect for them to react but when they are at night in the bed, who knows what they are thinking and doing!? (I'm talking about guys as in straight guys, unless you are not one). Gosh, maybe as girls we should help them too. Just dress a little bit more so that we can protect their eyes and protect ourselves too from being violated.

It's coming to the end of the year and I'm going to post my final post before 2007 starts. I still haven't got a chance to really sit down and ask God for the new year resolution but I know clearly what to thank God for.

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Monday 25 December 2006
*.* Merry Christmas! *.*

Ho Ho Ho Merry Christmas!

Thanks for all the gifts from all my friends. They were so nicely wrapped. I had to make 60 odds clothe pags with little cards and only slept for a few hours. My apology for being late that day.

Carolling was great. The carolers sang really well especially the last house. Maybe because it was the last so everybody just gave their all and their best. Well done people! *Applause*

This is my first time in the caroling team and I really enjoyed myself. I really got very fond memories from last night event. Wouldn't mind doing it again next year.

Christmas party tonight at my house. Hope it will be great!

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Thursday 21 December 2006
*.* Rain rain go away... don't come back.. *.*

After a long 3 days 2 nights downpour, I can finally see the sun and feel the warmth again. I remember driving on these nights at 40km/h and listening to the radio and this DJ used these words to describe the weather, "It is raining like.. Elephants. Yeah, raining elephants out there." I laughed. Sounds quite funny but cannot imagine if one day elephants do drop from the sky. It rained so heavily that all I could do was to sit, pray, call somebody to talk and wait patiently in the car until the visibility of the road is much clearer.

Just on Monday after giving tuition (returning home), I sat in the car waiting for the rain to subside. When I reached Yishun the rain was much much smaller. I went to pick my mentor up to send her home (almost very near to my tuition kid's place) and we went for tea. When we were about to go off, the rain was heavy again and both of us were stuck in the car. Visibility was very bad, it was dark with limited lights, raining like elephants, it was not (quite) safe to drive. Thank God I reached home safely and found one last car park lot pretty near the lift. It was already 12 midnight.

The perpetuate rain had caused many inconvenience. It was flooding almost everywhere. What I saw was just some small puddle of water (of course there were big ones that went splashing my whole car) everywhere but when I saw the news on TV I really got a shock. I never expect that Singapore would be flooded until such a point where water level reached one's knee and maybe even higher.

In such a time like this, the only safest place in Singapore is... Bukit Timah Hill. This is because it is the highest place in Singapore but think about it again, the higher you go, the higher possibly of you getting a lightning strike. So, where is the safest place? Wear a float and sleep. Get ready a sampan or a speed boat. Since you can't speed on a wet road, try the speed boat.

Hopefully it won't rain on Christmas. My mood depends pretty much on the weather. It is coming to the end of the year. I have got so much to give thanks and realised there are so many first-time in my life this year. Will blog about it on the last day of 2006. =)

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Thursday 14 December 2006
*.* *.*

Look at this and guess what is it:

Continue guessing...
Are you thinking...

I found it in my lab and it's a finger glove!! Not something that you are thinking of! Dirty minded... Bleah

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Wednesday 13 December 2006
*.* Disgusted.. *.*

I was at McDonalds this afternoon for my lunch and I saw this young couple sitting together. This young girl has long hair and she looked quite sweet. She was pouting her mouth and her boyfriend put her closer to him and kissed her head, trying to make her smile. After a while, they were tickling each other and laughing pretty loudly.

They caught my attention because I happened to sit in front of them. I was totally disgusted when I realised her boyfriend is actually a girl because she doesn't have Adam's apple and she looks just like a girl. Oh my, thank God I finished my lunch already, if not I guessed I wouldn't continue any further. I cannot imagine myself seeing it right in front of my eyes.

What has the world turning to when young people are going into weird relationships? It comes to my mind that people yearns for love. They need love be it at home and/or among friends. It made me realised that family does make a great difference of the things you choose to do.

After hearing so much and I've come to make myself clean that no parents in this world is perfect. No one is and no one will ever be. I cannot be a perfect mom next time when I become one myself too. I know many struggle with their families and especially with their parents. God made me know that kind of pain to experience how painful to see many (of His children) are wounded in this area on Sunday and I had to ask God why, tears started flowing down as I continued to pray in tongues loudly for the rest. Heartache.

Many things are not up to anyone of us to comment. Just don't follow the world..

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Monday 11 December 2006
*.* Youth Camp... Marvelous *.*

Just came back from youth camp. It's amazing! I guess it's my first youth camp that I participated. God is so amazing. So real!

I've seen God so real many times but I never experienced His real-ness in such a way like this. God showed me how hard-hearted I was when Rev Irene East was doing the back to the womb ministry and He had to do something to me. I saw His hand going into my mouth and into my heart, massaging it to soften it. I was crying so badly and then I felt someone stroking so gently on my hair. I opened my eyes but I could see no one. No one was standing close to me but I could feel my hair moving. It was God. He was stroking my hair so gently and telling me that I am precious in His eyes and that He loves me so much. My heart really softened. Tears rolled down my eyes like a flowing tap. God showed me visions during worship and I was greatly encouraged. I've never seen visions so real before too.

It was also my first time leading worship during camp. I had great fun. Rev Irene told me that I have special anointing for worship as I led. I guess tt is God gift for me.

Though I had little sleep, I guess the rest was sufficient. I have never understood the difference and meaning of resting and sleeping is and to hear my mentor always praying that let every hour of sleep be equals to 10 hours of rest. Finally I get to know what it means. I don't ask God for sleep but for rest. We don't sleep for the sake of sleeping. We sleep because we need to rest. So to be correct, my body and spirit needs rest rather than sleep.

Only God can work wonders. No one else can compare to Him.

posted by Michelle at 11:53:00 | 0 comments

Wednesday 6 December 2006
*.* *.*

Another case of suicide. Wonder why people getting some smart ways to die. Jumping off from a building, drowning in a deep sea, cutting your wrist, drinking detergent, overdosing of pills (panadols, sleeping pills, etc), car racing, bang a car and die or let a car bang you and die, etc. There are so many primitive methods of dying and now the new trend: Jumping off from the MRT track when an on-coming train is nearing the station.

This is just too silly. I wonder where these people get their courage from. Dying in such ugly manner and making such a hassle for the public, causing traffic jam and the whole of Singapore in a little malfunction of accessibility.

Well, it's not for me to comment why people want to take their own life just like this. They might be in a difficult situation where others just cannot understand. However, dying won't solve the problem. It will (probably, more likely, which it will be) create more problem for your family, love ones and the public.

People if you need to commit suicide, go somewhere else do something more creative. Always remember: Never make your death other people's burden. Don't mess up the place with your blood splattering all around and don't waste your money with the make up which will help you look good in the coffin. (It won't be the same, maybe quite ugly because you can't guarantee the make up skills) The more stitches you get, the more expensive it gets. And please don't jam the traffic.

Best way to die: Wait for God's timing to bring you up there.

posted by Michelle at 11:03:00 | 0 comments