+ I will keep my eyes upon Jesus +

Sunday 24 February 2008
*.* Birthday Wish.. *.*

Alright, I'm turning 21 soon in a few days time. Didn't know time past so fast.

Decided to write down my birthday wish here so that it helps my friends to not waste so much brain juice..

Here it goes:

1- Converse shoe, men's size 5.5 (think my feet's too big..)

2- Leather wallet.. Ask me about the size k?

3- A red Crumpler pouch

4- A nice bag

5- FCUK female perfume ( I just like that smell..)

6- A pair of glass slippers, size 6

7- New pair of contact lens (customized pair..)

8- A nice pair of watch

9- Maybe bodyshop voucher

10- Life Bookshop voucher ( I need to get some new books to read..)

11- Thomas Train collection (The one that is battery operated..)
Changed my mind, decided to get a deuter bag. (The one Kenneth has, don't know what model it is.)

12- A good dinner (Surprise me please..)

13- 10 free movie treat for a year (Haha..)

14- A travel drumset

15- A Godly man to be my boyfriend?

-Laughs-

I think that's about it.. =)

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Saturday 23 February 2008
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It's one of those difficult times where I don't see it coming. I don't know how much I can handle this anymore. I don't think I can handle it anymore. It's definitely not emo-ing. It's too real to be true. I'm afraid that more might come. Don't tell me about the future, I don't see any hope anymore. Maybe I'm not myself anymore. Maybe I can't bring myself to accept all these nonsense anymore.

Not breathing normally anymore.

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Saturday 16 February 2008
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My driving sucks big time today. I have no idea how many times my engine stalled. I hate it when it's going up the slope.

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Friday 15 February 2008
*.* Valentine's Day *.*

It's been such a long time since I last receive rose from guy during Valentine's Day. The last time was long long time ago. Long story. He came to my house and gave me 3 roses but I didn't go on a date with him because I was sick. So sad. Anyway, I didn't really have something for him. And shortly after, you-know-who came along but I didn't celebrate Valentine's Day with him either. So technically, I've never celebrated Valentine's Day with my loved one before.

I was supposed to be out on a date with a guy. But I turned him down because I knew my friends had planned something before hand. And on the way to catch a movie, I saw him! I felt a little bad and was a little embarrassed as well. He was with another guy friend.

Anyway, I was out with my usual group of friends and the two guys gave each a girl a rose. So sweet and thoughtful of them (even though they made the girls waited for them for almost an hour; giving the reason that the train broke down). We went for movie and to Timbre after that.

Timbre is a nice place to chill with 'live' band. Different bands on every night. Maybe I'll try out all nights to see which band is better. It's not a place to drink and get drunk but to really chill and enjoy the drink and music. I love it. It's outdoor so you get the breeze but just in case it rains, huh. I have no idea then.

It's one of the memorable Valentine's Day.

posted by Michelle at 02:20:00 | 0 comments

Tuesday 12 February 2008
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I'm at Tomsum's place alone with Joash. Hopefully he sleeps throughout the night. Tomsum is out for movie. I could feel their excitement as I helped them book for their movie tickets even though I just watched the same show last night.

It has been 2 years since this couple stepped into a cinema to watch a movie, so I've decided to be a babysitter for tonight. What a great sacrifice to be parents.

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Monday 11 February 2008
*.* Chinese New Year Again.. *.*

It has been a long holiday for most of us due to Chinese New Year. (Wah so fast another year has gone!!) My parents had gone to Malaysia since the first day of CNY so my sister and I had been visiting our relatives on our own. It was quite a hassle to travel from one place to another without a car (I miss blackie) and especially to places where public transport is really inaccessible.

I wonder how my sister and I had survived these few days. My house has no food except for instant noodles and limited new year goodies. I think all I have is coke and beer but I don't really drink them. I had to wash clothes and clean up the house. Ang Bao money was sufficient considering that we didn't really visit those whom we supposed to. The only thing I enjoyed most this year was.. to dress up. Yeah cheap and nice dresses.

I was supposed to wake up at 7.30am but when I opened my eyes this morning, it was already 7.50am. I was wondering why my alarm didn't ring and guess what, my alarm was set to 7.30PM! No wonder it didn't ring but I was still on time. Maybe God is trying to tell me something... (haha)

Grandpa was admitted to hospital today because of a fall. I hate it when my parents aren't around and such things happened. I don't really know how to handle it. And if anything were to happen (touch wood), I don't know how messed up and complicated things would be.

I went Sakura @ Toa Payoh for buffet dinner with the usual group. I would say I didn't really enjoy it because the food didn't look good. Anyway, I was playing with my food and one guy just post a challenge to everyone there to eat the mess and the reward was S$100. And sure some hero will do it. The hero did it but threw everything out later. He got his S$100.

Maybe I should tell you what kind of mess that was. It consisted of 1 scallop, 1 baked mussel, 1 plain mussel, 1 durian puff, some satay sauce, some ribina juice, one whole piece of herbal jelly which was super bitter, 1 big piece of dory fish, a few mixed vegetables ( I honestly cannot remember if I added wasabi) and I diced and smashed everything. The hero who ate it added ice cream just before he consumed it. It was out of boredom that I played with food and didn't know that there are people out there who would post such a challenge. I felt really bad.

Dynamo has been my best friend tonight. One stupid cockroach crawled right into my bathroom while I was bathing. Stupid pest just hate that stupid thing, don't know why God created it in the first place. Dropped right onto my clothes that I was about to wash them and it was HUGE!! I used an empty pail to kill it but it just won't die so I tried using that heavy dynamo detergent bottle and it worked! I smashed it within seconds and not giving it any chance to make any single movement. That's my hero.

Monday blues? I'll skip that.. Took one day leave.. Yeah..

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Wednesday 6 February 2008
*.* Memories.. *.*

Finally got a new router. I had been connecting to the internet directly through the modem. It was definitely faster at speed but I had to work through without any privacy and in the dark in the living room. But now I can finally use it in my room. Yeah.. Thanks to him who went down to Sim Lim to get it for me and fix it up at night.

Anyway, I was just thinking one of my ex-colleague. He never fail to ask me how I am doing now and still looking for opportunities for me in other countries. He will make me laugh whenever we chat on msn. I'm missing the good old days.

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Sunday 3 February 2008
*.* Cleaning up + Reunion Dinner *.*

1 more hour to Monday blues..
1 more day to Tuesday then counting down to half a day to Wednesday and IT'S HOLIDAY on Thursday, Friday, Saturday and Sunday!!

And... back to my Monday blues..

Finally got my room cleaned up this afternoon. I cannot remember when was the last time I cleaned up my room. Cleared all my lecture notes (a collection of 3 years) that had been sitting in the cupboard collecting dust. They were really collecting dust in my cupboard so decided to take everything off the shelves and clean them one by one.

And slowly move on to my.. messy table. That was the one that caused me the most headache. I had many little things in there which I cannot decide if I still want them or not. I have medicine lying all over the place which is like a mini pharmacy. Anyway, I placed all the necessary things in a tray and my table looks super tidy now. I hope it stays that way for long. So proud of myself.

I vacuumed the floor and realized actually it was very dusty under the bed and especially those tidy holes where I don't even normally walk or take notice. Guess what I found? My missing pillow! Didn't even realized I dropped one pillow for many months (eh.. my pillow actually turned quite black when I recovered it?) and this shows that I have many pillows on my bed. Mopped the floor twice.

I had an early reunion dinner at a family friend's house. They are very close to us so I consider them as my family too especially when they helped us through many tough times. My mom was telling this aunty about cleaning the house. She had to clean up almost the whole house while my sister and myself were responsible to our own rooms and the father.. SLEEPING away.

The aunty responded by saying that even her husband is the same. They just simply don't do housework and asking their husbands to do housework is like dragging a cow. Then they talked about Valentine's Day. This is funny.

The aunty told my mom that her husband gave her one bouquet of flowers during the first year of their marriage but she said it was a waste of money and the following year, she didn't even see one single stalk of flower. My mom told her that my dad gave her real roses first year of their marriage and she also complained saying that it was a waste of money so the following year my dad gave her fake flowers and told her that it can last very long.

These two women started throwing hints to their husbands sitting not too far from them and they began to each take turns to act blur. My dad walked around and smiled silently and the aunty's husband pretend not to hear anything and finally when my dad asked him if he has night training on Valentine's Day night, he said he is going to Geylang.

Oh well, I think these two women might end up dating each other instead. -Laughs-

I hope I won't end up like them. Maybe I should tell my husband next time when I get married that sometimes what I say may not be what I really mean. So maybe I should just tell him real flowers may be expensive but I won't mind one or two stalks. It's the thought that counts that is more important. Then again, buying flowers aren't practical. I better think twice before saying that if not that's the end of having Valentine's Day once I get married.

Still, it was a fun and enjoyable dinner.

posted by Michelle at 23:51:00 | 0 comments