To be a testimony of Christ and set an example for the believers in speech, in life, in love, in faith and in purity (1 Tim. 4:12). Do whatever is true, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable, whatever is excellent and praiseworthy to God (Phili 4:8).
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God doesn't love me because I'm special, what makes me special is because He loves me...
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Sunday, 26 December 2004 *.* *.*
I'm very encouraged by the people who went for their baptism today. Some of them had a hard time just to get baptised. Their parents don't agree until today they got baptised. Openly telling everyone that I've decided to follow Jesus, no turning back, no turning back.
I wonder how it feels to get baptised? Next year I'm going to do my baptism too. I can't wait to take my cross and say I've decided to follow Jesus, no turning back, no turning back. Just as I needed to fulfil what I needed to, I believe when I honour God, God will honour me... posted by Michelle at
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Saturday, 25 December 2004 *.* Merry Christmas! *.*
It has been such a long long time that my last update here...
School just started for a week already. I'm still having my holiday mood, festive seasons, Christmas, New Year. Ya, Why school starts at some weird timing? Don't ask me that, ask my school. While, been really busy with school and drama rehearsals. My time table is pretty insane. From 10 to 6, or 8 to 5. It's pretty long and tiring. I'm learning new stuffs now like Japanese Language. Other than the learning to write (like some primary school kid learning how to read and write in Chinese), I'm really looking forward to hear myself speaking fluent Japanese. Drama rehearsals for the past 1 week was pretty heavy for me because I got to rush for rehearsal after school. But it all ended well last night. I'm really happy. All the hard that really pays off. Sim Koo's mum accepted Christ too! Rejoice!! I was really nervous and I'm glad we gave each other encouragements at the backstage. It was a total experience because when I went up there, I could felt God presence and He gave me the peace I needed most and the confident. (I'm sorry folks for not being a good host last night. I was busy helping them to pack and we got to clear that place in 2 hours time. So so sorry. But I'm really glad you guys came because your presence really made a difference! Thank you so much..) In fact, this drama helped me learnt a lot. I got a wonderful gift from God too. He gave me very special friends in this drama. I had special friendship and even stronger friendship with some people too. People who know my story, you know that it hasn't been easy for us because we got to face each other. Though I know we aren't suppose to talk, but that 2 days of conversations... I'm more than happy. I know we have not come to an end of breaking any friendship. We probably won't talk to each other ever again. Even if we do, will it be just hi-bye? I really don't know. All I can say is, thank you for at least talking to me for that 2 days. I'm more than happy, contented. I wonder why am I in this drama, and I finally realized that God wants me to do His work. A drama of friendship, a drama of us, a drama of growing up, a drama of Christmas.. Most importantly, a drama of God.. We are all special in His eyes.. He ministered to me last night so much. Telling me to give my pain to Him that I've been holding so long ago. I've let go and let God. No one loves me more than Him, no one understands me more than Him. His unfailing love is incomparable. I'm looking forward to the new year 2005. I wonder what God has for me, where will I be, what will I do? I know I'm not the same anymore. Other than my looks, my dressings, I know inside me, God is dealing it. I trust Him.. Wishing all a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year.. posted by Michelle at
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Friday, 10 December 2004 *.* God closes one door but He opens another.. *.*
So much that I was thinking where am I supposed to go, how am I going to serve God better, here comes one door closes and another opens.
Many may not know that even though I'm serving in 88J, I would also like to go to the Seniors Program to learn things, to impact lives. I wanted to be in the Worship ministry and BB ministry. There are just so many things I want to do but I know I can't because I'm not superwoman neither am I Miss Incredible. It's what I need and have to do, not what I want to do. When I told my mentor about this, she kept reminding me how much I can do and that so much can really means a lot so long I can stay focus with my calling. When I heard 88J is going to function better (though the officers did mention it will be closing) and so much work load next year, I know I won't be able to go over and probably can't take up Worship ministry and I need to do what is given to me, it's not up to me to choose. We discussed a lot, how we should make things better next year, what we can give our boys so that they will turn to Christ and they will want to be in BB next time. When she asked me if I'm running the same race as the team, I almost couldn't answer her. I know I wasn't focus on what I was doing. I took time to think and reflect. I told myself I don't have a choice since I'm called here and I need to do what I'm supposed to. But the very sad thing is that just as I know what I'm doing, news came and88J is going to close down. But it won't be an immediate effect. We will still continue to run for the P5 and P6 boys and all our effort, energy and time will just be on them. I hope my two years will be spend wisely with them. I think we have built the bonds and friendship in BB. I hope the boys learn and as they grow up, they know what BB had really taught them and most importantly, how great God's love is for them. Just as they have been singing "His love is warmer than the warmest sunshine softer than a sign. His love is deeper than the deepest ocean wider than the sky. His love is brighter than the brighest star that shines every night above. And there is nothing in this world that can ever change His love." I hope they will experience it themselves through BB. As for me, I know my calling is to serve in the Boys' Brigade. Whether I am called out to serve in Worship ministry too, I'll wait and pray about it. It's for Him that I'm doing it for, not for anything else. posted by Michelle at
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Monday, 6 December 2004 *.* Dompak... *.*
It's my every first time to a mission trip with my church and we went to Dompak. Though it was only a short 3 days trip, but that 3 days I learnt a lot of things.
We went there to distribute rice and children's ministry. I experienced a lot of things that cannot be found in Singapore anymore. Imagine bathing in a open toilet that uses well water and obviously the water is not very clean as in Singapore. Imagine throwing all your rubbish into the sea, realizing that only get fine here in Singapore when a single little rubbish is thrown elsewhere. Imagine the place that you are sleeping can actually be your kitchen and cooking your own dinner. Imagine when the night gets darker and you need to go to the loo yet knowing it's too far, you can only do it somewhere near. Throughout this trip, I realized how fortunate I really am. I told my friends that I will appreciate all the toilets that I will ever visit, that at least there is a toilet because there wasn't any proper toilet there and water is so so precious. Only clean waters are used for cooking. I'm glad that I went because I finally realized and gone through what does it mean of living out of your comfort zone. I also realized even though people so near me, around me can don't appreciate my care and love, but the kids need it, so much. Just by playing with them, talking to them, singing songs together can make them happy. How fortunate we all are! We can't even be contented with the mobile phone our parents bought for us, yet always wanting the latest and newest phone in the market. Kids there will even pick up the balloon when dropped on the sandy ground, will want to pick their (unopen) sweets up when dropped into the sea. People may not like what you do now, people may not appreciate all you have done for them, but don't give up because people out there need just all your care and love. I would like to go again because I want to make a difference... posted by Michelle at
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